Yearn And Aches.

A swan in the lake

The lake is gloomy

The Skies are cloudy

A day even worse than the mid-night.

Someone sing a lullaby.

Sun without sunshine,

Mountains Without Peaks,

Fountains of Saline Water.

I have been awake for days

Days are Nights

Nights are Day

Someone sing lullaby.

Gloom of Night.

I tried to dig my nails deep into my forehead.
I slashed some skin but failed to bring effective effects.
Suddenly, a drop poured from my eyes,
Can't actually say what it was.

A teardrop caused by the pain i got from the act,
Or a teardrop caused by the hatred bought by own insecure imaginations.

Yes, I am insecure that is why i still curse Lennon.

A bitter tale of LOVE.

An uncanny fairy tale .
there was a belle
But,there was no prince
Just a traveller with a decaying heart.

No palaces,
No enchanted forests,
Just a dimly lit square room
With single occupancy
He owned.

A belle .
That Goddess of  eternal charm
Her Unpleasent mind and unkind heart
Beneath her glowing white skin
Was a beast.

A creature who wanted to create inhuman filthiness
An imposter who talked of deprived love
Lurid dreamer,captivating worn out souls.

That traveller
An escapist with twisted destiny.
A passive insomniac .
Those ditched Goodbyes
Somehow, a whole world lies about his deception.

One sudden uncertain moment
they got mesmerized
But it was too good to believe
But they continued,
Juxtaposing each others dreams,Everytime.
But time defeated them.


That traveller went into uncertain solitude
Belle, now feeling like a fool.
Her Vanquished dreams.
The beast got unleashed ,
Belle was the beast.

Symphony Of Chaos

Let that human scream in anger
Let him pick all the remote emotions ,
He kept hidden in some unworthy corner,
Somehow,all notions getting too heavy to hold .

His isolated mind is near it's demise
Leaving behind absolute horizonless behaviour.
But,now he lusts for life
A life which got "deprived".

These days even the devil wears white
The scent of blue orchid,silently fading
This human,wants to create a moment.
A moment that will consume all the gloom
When whole sky will be burning in a mutual hatred induced gaze.

NOT HAPPILY EVER AFTER

There's no escape..
I speak the truth,or i just
don't speak..
I  fade to solitude,
desolation and silence
the only comforts in this
world of lies
but in the silence there is a
suppressed
darkness and it swallows me whole 
leaving me hollow and numb.
But this numbness is
becoming a welcome
feeling to the abuse and 
pain of those that
fake their feelings...
They say they care... they
care enough to spit in my tear stained face and tell
 me to fuck off ,they care enough to slap me when I
speak
truth to them...honesty to all their lies...

Your love is the only thing that 
sustains me against 
these torments.

I suffered and died...
She died in my arms,her
blood trickling slowly in the
gapes in the white tiles
finding the only true
escape.
She took her last breath 
while gazing at mine.
 She left me  here to fight
this fight...and it is not a
fight i wish to fight alone...
Bunt she died and i lived
against all odds...

We should have died
Together.   

Down memory lane.

Monochromatic sunlight,
Gazed along the path above and down,
Black cloudy sky playing mischievous games.
I said to myself nothing numbs the pain anymore.Why?

Sometimes i can see grey structures,
Rusty iron doors, how to escape?
That old man says, "i am lonely and depressed".

Now every, thought of mine a weird imagination.
At night that nightmare again paid a visit,
My  fears are such a stronger emotion.
But i don't know, what they feed upon to keep themselves alive.

Somehow, i can still breathe,
But, the air is inferior,almost renegaded.
So, i suffocate sometimes.

Suppress the emotions,act numb.

Above the fussy reality,
I still dream and dream.
Dreaming about this bittersweet love,
My mind ignites sacred intentions.

I left out what i needed to change.
They say i act like i Am "running out of time",
But i Am just playing my role, i won't share my secret.
In this mist of reality i am a "slave to my thought's".

My thought's, almost unidirectional,
My thought's, eyes wide shut,
My thought's, much for the pain,
My thought's, pity beautiful.